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Saturday, November 26, 2005

I Think I Can

This is my very first blog. So, what do I talk about? The kids are home so I could talk about them--nah. I could blog about my dog and two cats since my little dog is whining at my feet as I type and one of the cats is pawing at the door to get in—nah. Maybe I’ll write about “time” because there just plain isn’t enough of it--nah. I could write about the fact that I’ve been writing for more than a decade and not selling and how the frustration of not selling has made it harder to write. Yeah, I bet I could write a lot about NOT writing--about the doubt that has crept inside of me over the years and curled its invisible fingers around my brain, crippling my muse and causing me to have severe writers block for the first time since I started writing. When I finished my first novel years ago I really thought I would be a published author within a few years. I was 36 or 37 (can’t even recall for sure because it has been SO long). I gave myself a goal. I would make that first sale before I hit 40. And then, just like that, within the blink of an eye, I turned 40. And I hadn’t sold. I was bummed, but I was still SO focused and energized and determined to write AND sell that it didn’t bother me too much. I forged onward. Besides, I had heard enough writing war stories by then to know that it might take a little longer than I first thought. I loved my stories and I was SO sure I would sell at any moment that I had everyone around me believing it too. While raising four kids I have finished five books and at least a half dozen proposals. Not too impressive, but not bad for a slow writer like me. What worries me though is that I have not finished a book in over two years. I believe hitting the decade mark of being an unpublished author was my own personal kiss of death. Finishing a book and getting to “the end” doesn’t sound so great anymore. Why bother? Who the heck is going to want to buy it? That’s the big question. Okay, so much for writing the inspiring and positive blog I intended to write. But at least I’m writing. And I’m almost to the end! Maybe I CAN finish another book after all. “I think I can. I think I can.” Maybe if I start thinking positive again, I can conquer this demon. Maybe, just maybe, if I sit my butt in this chair and write day after day I will finish another book. I did it before, and that means I can do it again, right? And I’ll sell that damn book. Just watch me! Wow, writing this blog ended up being quite therapeutic. Thanks for listening.

10 Comments:

At 12:48 PM, Blogger Colleen Gleason said...

Yes you can, Theresa!!!!

Colleen

 
At 1:50 PM, Blogger bridget said...

You go girl! You're going to do it. The cycle was on a downswing, but now it's going up, up, up, and you're going with it!

 
At 2:34 PM, Blogger Tori Scott said...

Theresa, I'm right there with you. I haven't finished a book since 2003. I've started plenty. I have two half-finished. But I can't keep from fretting over the one that's out there now, waiting for a decision. If it bombs, I'll probably put the half-finished book aside and write something completely different. If it sells, I think I can finish this one. I think I can.

We CAN do this!

 
At 8:31 PM, Blogger Karen said...

Theresa,

I KNOW YOU CAN!!!!

Hang in there. I know you will succeed, and when you do it will be all the sweeter because you never gave up.

 
At 9:46 PM, Blogger Trish Milburn said...

I know the feeling of frustration after years of working so hard and not selling, but the only way to be certain you won't sell is to not write. You can do this. I have every confidence in you. You're a three-time Golden Heart finalist. That says all we need to know about your talent. Now it's just a matter of hitting the right editor at the right time. Go, Theresa!

 
At 5:23 AM, Blogger MaryF said...

Theresa, I've been writing for almost 12 years now. Ever since I finalled in the Golden Heart, I was sure I would sell Any Day. And it still hasn't happened. BUT knowing that I was good enough to final in the GH gives me the hope that gets me to the computer almost every day. Start small, 100 words a day, get back in the groove, write a story you're in love with. You can do it! And I'll be screaming when you sell!

 
At 9:34 AM, Blogger Theresa said...

Ahhh, thanks you guys. I'm not going to give up. And I'll let you know when I finish my next book!

 
At 12:54 PM, Blogger Jennie Lucas said...

Theresa (and Tori), isn't it interesting that you haven't finished a new book since you both finaled in the Golden Heart in 2003? My critique partner had the same thing happen after she finaled in 2002. It derailed me a little, too. I wonder if, when you final in the GH, a person's expectations rise to such an extent that you really feel like you're going to sell any minute. When that doesn't happen, it's crushing. The "hurry up and sell" feeling can really start to get a stranglehold, until you start to discard things before they're even finished, always looking for a more "sure thing" idea.

BTW, Theresa, I really love your line about the doubt that has "crept inside over the years and curled its invisible fingers around my brain, crippling my muse." That's just a gorgeous description.

Jenna

 
At 5:51 PM, Blogger Kiki, aka Esri said...

Boy, could I relate to this blog. I call this time period the "sophomore blues," and I think a lot of writers give up during them. Hang in there, sister.

 
At 4:39 PM, Blogger Theresa said...

Good point, Jenna, about the GH possibly having something to do with my inabilitiy to finish a book. I hadn't thought of that...very interesting point you make about wanting to write the "sure thing".

 

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